Day 2 and 3 of Abstinence

Well yesterday I was unable to post because of extreme back pain; and the computer being down for an update. So here I am today. So many thoughts go through my head about abstinence and my life during the day and night, it's hard to remember it all and put it down. I guess all I can worry about is right now! :)

Just had lunch and it was fulfilling. I've had two more abstinent days, including today. So 3 altogether. They've been somewhat easy. When I've gotten hungry, I've had a chocolate milk drink or juice or tea. It's kind of weird not just going in and eating whenever the voice comes around. It's like, "Oh, I don't do that anymore." A little sadness around that but a bigger relief later on when I make it through with the small arsenal of tools I'm slowly building.

Music is on my mind. After this I'm going downstairs to work on it. When things worry us, the best thing to do is go and take care of them. Then the worry is lifted. What a concept, huh?! ha..

I feel like I have so much to do. I have to keep reminding myself one moment/day at a time. One chore at a time. Cooking healthy meals is a priority and so is a moderate workout. Once those things are in the bag, then I can move into the other items in order of priority and tell myself after the day is over, "I did the best I could today."

Today I had put out 6 dates to have with butter and hubby commented that I was eating a lot of butter. So I put back 2 or 3 of the dates and just ate what I had prepared. But I didn't let it get to me as far as thinking that it was a diet thing. I did say that the butter probably had 100 calories and then I caught my 'dieting mentality' sneaking in as Becky calls it in her book.

Today I'm also feeling pretty good about my abstinence and my habit is to say... "I am doing fine, I don't need to write or practice any tools," but man... I know that game. For me, that is another voice that slowly takes me into ego land where I'm thinking that "I'm" controlling it and now that it's going good, I can just move on to more important things! NOT! After 100 years of doing that, well, I've learned my lesson and so here I am posting away.

My Tools:
http://www.dietingrecovery.com
http://www.dadamo.com