Wow... time flies when you are busy and don't think about eating all the time! Actually I do think about it... I think about what my next abstinent meal will be and how to stay moderate. So far so good thanks to my higher power keeping me grounded.
Today again I was deeply fatigued. I poured some coffee mid morning as I was going to use it to try and keep going. I then poured it down the sink and went and laid down. Much better solution. That my friends is taking care of ones self. I woke up feeling better and got busy with the laundry and cleaning I needed to do. Then I worked out. Then I felt awful again. Body hurting all over. Man pain is a tiring thing. Hubby wanted to go to the beach so after lunch we drove out. It was beautiful and relaxing. I read some more of Balancing Heaven and Earth by Robert Johnson. I let the wind blow through me. I took time to just 'be' instead of 'do' as Robert talks about in the book.
I had alot of fear last night around 2:30 about studio costs and I had to remind myself over and over that I need to see the end result and not worry about how I'm getting there. Obviously one has to be frugal and careful but to lay awake in fear over money is silly right now. We are ok today. And we were ok yesterday. That's all I can count on is today. But I will admit the fear had more to do with how I think maybe the studio guy is padding his hours. I don't like to be manipulated and I was during my first CD and so I'm sensitive. But again, I kept having to remind myself... new moment. And don't worry... think on the end result... etc., etc. Man it's tough to get the brain to settle down. It's like an obsessed monkey on speed at times! Ha...
I was back down a lb today. Yesterday I weighed and was up a lb. So in total I have come down 2 lbs in two weeks. Can't ask for a better way to loose! I get to eat delicious moderate healthy meals and keep my brain chemistry balanced. Now if I could only not hurt all over. I hope I haven't let the hemochromotosis go to far this time. I go on Sept 8th in OR to have a blood draw. It's kind of a pain and I hope I can get the same care I was receiving in OR in WA.
I've changed my water so we are drinking tap through a Pure Filter. So other than the hemochromotosis, I can't imagine where this entire body pain and fatigue would come from.
Now I'm off to work on some songs I need to sing in the studio next week. Tomorrow well... I'll think about tomorrow when it arrives. I'm working on staying present, right? :)
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