Well, made it through fairly easy today. Thank God for this. One of those days that comes easy. I was scared all night that I would not do well. I'm really afraid of how deeply this disease has me bound up. I can look back and realize it has been there since I was just a little girl and I've been trying to control it and make excuses for it and on and on and on for about 40 years now. Man... that's a wake up call, huh? I mean this is what really was sobering me was that and that horrid fear and terror I began to have.
Thank God the body begins to ache and cry out for help. Because that too has been getting my numbed out attention. Believe me! I have pains I've never had, happening in the last few months.
Had alot of worries last night and had to keep working to surrender them to God. I grabbed one of my rocks and held on for dear life. Hard night, easy day.
So tonight I'll ground myself some more by reading in Becky's book again or maybe some of her handouts. I've also got to work on my music a bit as that is what is going to buy my food and gas in the future years to come and if I don't work on it, I get to feeling like I'm slackin' off. The Universe wants us to take our steps and then I feel it guides us to the gold. :)
Not much else to say. I am thankful today for "No Ramdon Eating inbetween 3 Moderate Meals." And I am also so grateful for good love in my life, good food, and a beatiful day outside. I'm looking forward to being able to go out and give my voice, performance and writing gifts to the world.
My Tools:
http://www.dietingrecovery.com
http://www.dadamo.com
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