Day 31!!!

Whoo Hoo!!! 31 Days of being completely honestly abstinence! Oh boy am I feeling balanced, grounded and most especially grateful. Thank you Great Spirit. Thank you God. Thank you life.

I would not trade one minute of all those years of suffering in addiction process because of what it taught me. How it humbled me, how it taught me compassion, tore up my pride, and so much more. But I will not trade my abstinence for anything now!!!

What a freedom I have found. When one reaches this point, one wonders how they could not have found it sooner. How come they kept giving into trying to control and diet and go insane when the tools were within a change of attitudes reach.

Blinders. That's really the stark answer. Plain ole' blinders - those side ones they put on horses so they don't get affected by the traffic going by. That's what a diet is like. That's what starving is like. That's what obsession and addiction are like. Blinders shutting out life, shutting out the joys and pains and sufferings by creating your own personal hell on the inside of those blinders right there between your ears!!!

That and good ole' unbalanced brain chemistry. And boy does that make me so grateful for Dr. D'adamo's GenoType research and subsequent eating plan for each genotype.

I am eating better and more balanced than in my entire life. And loving every delicious minute of it. I cannot believe I put myself through such extreme dieting and starvation routines missing out on delicious olive oil and ghee, and so many wonderful foods that I now DO NOT HAVE TO BINGE ON but can enjoy moderately and might I add SANELY.

Oh my Gosh.. sanity.. what a concept for an addict!

So I made it through a month with NO CRAVINGS during my entire hormonal shift as I did start my cycle today. My weight held steady for a full week as I'm sure it was from hormonal activity. But as I mentioned, abstinence is first and foremost beyond any weight loss and holding my bottom line of "NO RANDOM EATING INBETWEEN 3 MEALS PER DAY NO MATTER WHAT" is key to my continued abstinence. NOT BECOMING OBSESSED ABOUT WEIGHT AND BEGINNING TO CUT PORTIONS TO TRY AND ATTAIN SOME DESPERATE GOAL.

OH MY GOSH... TO BE RID OF THE MENTAL CRAZINESS IS BEYOND MY POOR MINDS ABILITY TO GRASP RIGHT NOW!! It's quite glorious.

I told my husband last night, there would not be many people who would understand my estatic state of being from becoming abstinent. It is like the moment I went and had an underwater body fat test in my extreme dieting and exercise days and came out having 12.5% body fat. I walked out of the clinic totally overjoyed and looked around the parking lot at normal life going on and realized nobody would give a crap!!! HAAA!!!

But seriously, I know other folks who have attained true abstinence will understand and share my joy.

So onward.. humbly deeply grateful for the great time we all live in of advanced science where Naturalpaths like Dr. D'adamo and others are discovering ways to help us eat individually to keep our brain chemistry balanced and as well deep grateful thanks to Becky Jackson for her wonderful recovery system that works!

It's funny... we addicts always want something complicated and extreme and fast. Over, done, NOT. Done all that and it got me to the starting gate 100 times over. Now I've left the starting gate for good!!!

YA HOOO!!!!

My Tools:
"No random eating inbetween 3 moderate meals per day, no matter what."
http://www.dietingrecovery.com
http://www.dadamo.com