Back from a little journey and Day 38

Well we took a trip 6 hours south to do some business. Hubby had to be in a legal meeting all day the 2nd day and I was left to be out and about. I went to Whole Foods and got a couple of cooking aprons so I won't ruin anymore of my sweat shirts cooking! ha... And then I went up North to the mountains to where we used to live and walked around in the forrest. I miss it but it is too far away for the kind of business we do. It was good to go up there.

I was MORE THAN FATIGUED from the drive and the stress of it all. But no cravings. I had moments where I felt like eating because I was so tired but feeling like eating is different from the driving 'never let you go until you eat junk' voice which was not really present.

I had brought a lot of good food in a cooler, so there was no need to eat out breakfast or lunch. We did have dinner out two nights and to be honest, my meals may have been slightly more than moderate but not enough to say I broke my abstinence. While everyone else enjoyed desert, I was just too full and could not justify it.

So I hung in there with God's help and lived through the tiredness and the ups and downs of the trip and made it home. The only thing I really did more than I ever do is chew gum. I chewed about 4 - 6 sticks per travel day throughout the day. I didn't like this and don't plan to do it again unless I cannot get to a place to brush my teeth. The other thing is that I did have a couple of cups of half calf coffee and I DO NOT LIKE THE HIGH, this stuff gives me anymore. I really can tell the difference between coffee caffeine and green tea/yerba mate caffeine. I get way to grittery and uneasy on the coffee caffeine. Yuck-O! ha... I was never one to use speed or diet pills way back when. Hated them.. they just made me want to eat to come back down to earth.

I weighed this morning and my weight held steady at 5 lbs less. I have not been having good regular movements so I'm not sure what is really going on.

When I was down there, I went to the Red Cross and had a blood draw for my hemochromatosis and yes my iron was up so that is why I've been aching all over. Now I have to start going for regular draws of 1 unit a week or so, until the iron levels are down again.

It's kind of a pain to have this disease but at least I can manage it with blood draws. And it's kind of a pain to be an addict but in all the years that have past I learned so much from the disease of addiction that I cannot call it a pain anymore. It's a true gift as it has brought me to a place where I really want to eat right and take care of myself in a gentle moderate way.. not an obsessed over the top control freak way.

Freedom is moderation and surrender.

My Tools:
"No random eating inbetween 3 moderate meals per day, no matter what."
http://www.dietingrecovery.com
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